It's been eight months now

Its been more than 8 months that my little prince came to my life. So much has happened. I am still amazed how our little human is growing, learning and interacting with his surroundings.

There are few things that Iam keep reminding myself:

- The best mom is the happy mom. Do your best. The little one is the priority. However at the same time it's very important not to loose yourself in moms duty. Think how can you give yourself a little bit of break. Use helps when possible and treat your selves. When you are happy you are a better mom. You  will make better decision and will act more energetic and creative toward your baby.

- Appreciate the quality time you are spending with your bear cub. Time flies. Really. Enjoy every moment of being together. Take pictures. Make a photo book every now and then. One day when bear cub grows old enough he will love to see his life story through pictures.

- Be yourself. Be content. Don't compare your little one with other kids. Don't try to ACT in a certain way without really feeling it. Don't follow a parenting book if you don't quite get what it says. Being yourself ( your best) is far more effective than acting blindly by the book.

- Don't forget about your partner. Still find a way to surprise each other. Keep the romance alive. Just having this in your mind will help. Of course things are different now but it doesn't mean you can not find a way to enjoy some couple times every now and then.

- Avoid friends who gets competitive with their kids. For me these people are joy killer. Too focus to prove their babies are the best, they will only send you negative vibe. They will compare everything your baby is doing with theirs. Starting from wight and length to IQ and rest.

- and last but not least don't stress yourself with fears. Nobody knows what the future holds. Just do your best and enjoy life today.

Have I told you 'I love you' enough? Have I kissed you enough? Have I hugged you enough? Before we all turn into stardust!

My little one is 6 months old now. I can't believe I was away from my office life this long. It sounds like yesterday I said goodbye to everyone. I have another 6 months to cherish with my baby before going back to work. But I confess thoughts and concerns regarding work are sneaking on me every now and then. I have to keep these thoughts at bay before they flood me with unrealistic concerns. Let's enjoy the present (I am telling to myself) when the time is right I will make a right move. I always do.

For women with serious career, pregnancy have its own challenges. I would love to talk to some of the successful mommy out there and see how they found balance in their personal life and career.

You are as big as my pillow

My son is 4 and a half months old. Now he laughs to silly faces that I make, he rolls back and forth and getting ready to crawl, he discovered his hands, knows how to take pacifier out of his mouth and return it back,...  I watch him reaching to these milestone eagerly. It melts my heart seeing him grow so fast. I am a mom now. He changed me.
I am trying to record these moments as much as I can. Being a parent is wonderful. I love how he grow everyday, learn new things, gets easily excited by a simple toy or a silly face and never gets tired of it.
I love how he fits on my pillow. How I can hold his tiny feet with my thumb. A little man from

lilliput.

Come with me now

Afraid to lose control
And caught up in this world
I've wasted time, I've wasted breath
I think I've thought myself to death

I was born without this fear
Now only this seems clear
I need to move, I need to fight
I need to lose myself tonight

Woah come with me now
I'm gonna take you down
Woah come with me now
I'm gonna show you how

John Joseph 

Link to the music video.

Why Merlin finished this way?

I just finished watching last episode of final season of Merlin. Merlin is a fantasy mini series, about adventure of a younge warlock to help king Aurthor to rise and unite the 5 kingdom.

Nima and I really enjoyed watching this fun, adventures, kind of light, simple series. Merlin is one of the few TV series that we finished to the end. But I really didn't like the ending.

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Why aurthor died for god sake?!!! I know in a legend Author dies by a hand of Mordred, but since this tv series already changed a lot of things about the old legend I was expecting Aurthor to live.

From the beginning, the dragon was telling Merlin that he was destined to help Aurthor to become a one and greatest king. A king who will unite 5 kingdoms and let magic to be practiced without fear.

Aurthor died, without any of these happens. The writers gave the old legend flavor of 21centry which I really liked it. Such as having people from different origin or class to become knight or even Queen.

Then why killing Aurthor before fulfilling his destiny that reapetedly said through out the series..
The writer could easily let Aurthor survive for many years, unit the kingdom, properly acknowledge  Merlin, set magic free,..and finally have Aurthor died for that wound that never completely healed at his old age. I should have been  the writer indeed :)

Summer, work, ...

Weather is warm, trees are all green, birds are singing, squirrels are jumping up and down, summer is finally coming. Nature is finally waked up and so do constructions which means more work.
I've been staying late god knows since when, can't even remember. I work weekends after weekends. I was jocking with my husband, that I better get pregnant and get a year off from work :D

These path few months have been tough for me, couple of key people including my manager left the group and one colleague got laid off. Naturally work pressure increased, both mentally and physically.

I hate it when people trying to be clever and take advantage of situation even if they don't really fit for the empty space. After all these years one thing never changed in me, I am still pretty much an idealist. It pains me when my colleague lies to self promote himself as a manager. The chevalier inside me wants to make wrong right all the time. Or maybe it's my Aries sign which pushes me forward to stand up for what I believe is right and speak up for what I believe is not.

 I like someone or something I show it easily but the downside is if I don't like someone or something there is no way for me to hide it. No matter how hard I try I will show I am upset, disappointed, angry, I just can't can't hide it.
but our life will be much more easier if we could let it go. Life is not fair, I know but I don't like it. I want it to be fair and just. We can always train and provide knowledge to nice people,but it is almost impossible to train someone as an adult to be nice, not to lie like a piece of cake, no to be jealous, ...

Life is life I know, I know. It's not fair but it should be.